Something I Wanted

Something I wanted

mistaken for something I needed

dangerous games in which you cheated 

put me about two steps past defeated

even after I pleaded with the past not to dictate my future

but it was in the present where I hardly knew her

caught staring at her

when I should have been looking through her

who knows

I might have seen “you” standing there

but you let me love her anyway

you didn’t care

you’d rather see me beaten down and surrounded by questions to which you are the answer

just so you can stay relevant

But did you ever think I’d get tired of asking

tired of basking in the guiding lights that are the thoughts of you

Im young and restless with one life to live

I only have but so much love to give

and you’re cutting it close

my patience is at an all time low

but maybe you’re running late

what if your clock is slow

I’ve made it this far 

now how much longer to go